Dear Diary. 19.8.23

I've come to the conclusion that my ability to write on here is severely impeded by my mood. I find it really hard to communicate with you all when I'm not feeling good in my head. I don't know why this is but I'm finding that I get ever increasingly more inward the more depressed...

Dear Diary. 31.7.23

Good morning my fellow humans. Well, what can I say about the last few days... Things are tense at work, mainly because I know what my managers planning and I'm not supposed to. Meaning I'm biting my tongue all the time and itching to say something to her, but I can't. My counterpart still thinks...

Dear Diary. 26.7.23

so.... Tonight I'm a little pissed. In more ways than one. Firstly. I've had 3 cans of strongbow dark fruits so I'm a little sqiffy. Secondly because I've just found out that my manager would have me move to part time hours, if she had her way. let me explain... I was talking to my...

Dear Diary. 24.7.23

Where has this year gone? We're almost in August, summer is marching on. Not that we've seen much of it here in the UK, its rainy most of the last month. Soon it will be Bb2s birthday and that always signifies to me the end of summer and the start of the long, cold months...

Dear Diary. 21.7.23

Its been a long week, and I've still got 1 more day to work before I get a much needed break for 2 days. The life of a charity shop assistant manager isn't a bad one. The hours are predictable and reliable and the work is good but I'm new in post in an already...

Dear Diary. 18.7.23

I've woke up in a really funky mood. Not a good funk either. It's my only day off this week and I wake up like this! My house is a total mess. The bears will be late for school if I don't get a move on and I have a meeting with bb3s school this...

Dear Diary. 16.7.23

Sorry I've not wrote in a few days. It's been manic at work and at home. The Bears are all okay but they're hard work at the moment! I don't know if it's my BPD playing up or if it's just their lifestages but I find the 2 youngest bears so very hard to cope...

Dear Diary. 12.7.23

What a day today has been. First off the Bears 3 and 4 have been fighting with each other since the moment they woke up and I feel like a referee for a WWE match. They made me late setting off to work and that kinda set up my day from there. Work was good...

Dear Diary. 11.7.23

Well, where should I start... It's been a long, but ever so short 3 years since I last delved into blogging, as anyone who follows me will know. So many things have changed. I've completed my degree in Business management with entrepreneurship and gained a 2:1, which I'm so very proud of. I'm now working...

An open flower – a haiku

written in response to #MLMM, Heeding Haiku. An open flowerNothing but a single stemIts all I have left

6/1/20

Dear diary. What a difference a few days rest, away from all the agro, can make to a person's mood! I actually didn't mind Bear going to work for a change this morning and I dont feel like utter crap being on my own. I even managed to have a lie in on Saturday which...

25/12/19

Dear diary Merry Christmas everyone. Xxxx

18/12/19

Dear diary Just today and tomorrow left till bear finally finishes work for the christmas holidays and I cant wait for a proper lie in and some daytime adult company! The only upside to all the time I spend on my own is that I'm slowly learning new skills. This week I taught myself to...

24/10/19

Dear diary My backs still buggered, I'm still having nightmares and uni is still stressing me out but I'm ok. I have to keep telling myself that! Fear has become the biggest problem in my life at the moment. Not the various things that are causing it, the fear itself is the problem and I...

Fishy doodles

I am becoming a bit fond of doodling.

25/8/19

Dear diary. Sorry for the lateness of my entry. I was exhausted last night and fell asleep before even managing to write a line in here. Camping was ace as always but I didn't sleep well at all, which is unusual. I generally get a really good nights sleep under the stars but not this...

9/9/19

Dear diary. The weather has been much like my mood all day! English Summertime! BB1 let me have MB1 for the day whilst she was out at appointments and so I've been on Gamma/Momma Bear duties all day long; and my house certainly reflects this! I have the pair of them overnight and tomorrow too...