5/10/19

Dear diary. The weekends been as big a wash out as the weather's been! Bear has spent all friday and Saturday night out at friends leaving me sat by myself for two nights straight and this evenings going to be much the same I think. Bears youngest is coming for tea today and the kids... Continue Reading →

Lost again.

Written in response to #YDWP. 25/9/19. Lost again. I need to talk to someone But I don’t know what to say I don’t know what I’m feeling Or why I feel this way I feel so lost and empty Sat here with my pen, alone But I can’t talk to anyone Not online, by pen... Continue Reading →

Empty shoes.

written in response to #YDWP. 3/9/19. Empty shoes Empty shoes on a shoreline Piled up one by one Each representative Of a life that was done With lost families and jobs With lost hope and the longings For something more than they had The lost pride and belongings Empty shoes on a shoreline Piled up... Continue Reading →

Loneliness.

Being alone is awful. Nothing to stimulate the senses, no-one to break the endless silences. Nothing to do but ponder co-operation with anyone and nothing to enrich your days but radio, TV or books; no cohabiting companions to change the pace a little. Loneliness isn't just the plight of the elderly; it isn't something that... Continue Reading →

13/8/19.

Dear diary. I need to snap out of this funk I'm in, it's no good! I'm sick of feeling shitty about myself and everything about me and I'm sick of not being able to put my mind to anything. I just want to get on with stuff but I seem mired in thought and completely... Continue Reading →

12/8/19.

Dear diary. I dont know what's wrong with me today? I felt the fog descend at about lunchtime and I havnt been able to shake off the feelings of emptiness and doubt since. I dont even know what's wrong to have set this off, I just seem to have fallen off the edge of somewhere... Continue Reading →

E = EUPD.

LillBlu’s A to Z challenge. Your Daily Word Prompt. Word of the Day Challenge. 5/7/19. Emotionally incontinent, that's me! I can't go a day without breaking down and crying over the merest thing, the world shies away from me because of it and my life becomes an Eternity of loneliness. People I once called my best friends... Continue Reading →

FED UP!

I need help!   Being a housewife is easy, if you’ve ever been taught the skills. Being a cook, cleaner, maid, laundry assistant, handyman and nanny is easy if you know how. Running a house is simple, if you have a clean slate and proper routines right from the start. Running a family isn’t hard... Continue Reading →

A day in the life of EUPD Me!

Your Daily Word Prompt. 24/6/19. CONTROL. It's been a bad few days for me because, like the fool I am, I forgot to take my meds on Saturday. (Hence no posts over the weekend) This has spun my head into its previous cycle of self-loathing and I don't know which way up is at the... Continue Reading →

Why do I keep falling for it?

Your Daily Word Prompt & Word of the Day Challenge. 16/6/19. INSINCERE & SHINE INSINCERE & SHINE Insincere people shine like a beacon to me, most of the time. I can usually smell their bull when they enter a room but there are those rare few that completely bowls me over and suck me in;... Continue Reading →

Some days!

Some days you just can't win no matter what you do. My neighbours hate me for stuff I haven't even done to them. My older kids only want me when they want or need something; they spend more time falling out with me than not. My little kids won't do anything I ask of them,... Continue Reading →

This woman!

Your Daily Word Prompt & Word of the Day Challenge. 13/6/19. INSIDIOUS & TEMPT INSIDIOUS & TEMPT I’ve lived in this house, this time around, for the last six years. We originally moved into the house in 1996 when my grandmother died and left the house to mum. I moved out again midway through 1997.... Continue Reading →

The Bench.

The SPF Challenge. 9/6/19. THE BENCH. The SPF Challenge The Bench   As she looked out across the dreary courtyard at the bench they once shared together on brighter days, tears filled her eyes and fell in puddles around her feet; much like the rain outside. ‘Our Spot.’ She sobbed, ‘We were supposed to be... Continue Reading →

Aussie flu

Good luck to anyone who has it. Try to stay hydrated as much as possible the NHS says. They don't tell you how to cope on your own with 3 kids tho which is the advice I really could do with right now.

Disturbed. That’s me!

Lee Scott Spanton. 19/5/74 - 11/11/17 I miss you so much baby. Hello darkness, my old friend. I've come to talk with you again Because a vision softly creeping Left its seeds while I was sleeping And the vision that was planted in my brain Still remains Within the sound of silence In restless dreams... Continue Reading →

Today’s mission is…

SURVIVAL! Today my only plan is to keep myself and the 2 youngest monsters alive! 5 weeks ago today my Lee passed away, we held his funeral just last Monday. We were not together long, just 14 short months but they were life changing months for me and the kids. He taught us all so... Continue Reading →

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