A Battle Began

Written in response to #WOTD, #Let it Bleed A battle began inside of meSuch a long, long time agoThe battles never left meNo matter how I grow I've aged in time and wisdomBut as yet I am still boundThe battle rages on insideNo peace for me is found I am at peace in natureBut I... Continue Reading →

Just holding it together.

Written in response to #Wotd, #YDWP, #FOWC, #Daily Addictions. Today the voices are loud in my mind again. All the questions being asked in cacophony together, never easing up and I fear a return to the old days when my head ruled my life and near tore me apart. I know the mechanisms now tho,... Continue Reading →

5/10/19

Dear diary. The weekends been as big a wash out as the weather's been! Bear has spent all friday and Saturday night out at friends leaving me sat by myself for two nights straight and this evenings going to be much the same I think. Bears youngest is coming for tea today and the kids... Continue Reading →

Lost again.

Written in response to #YDWP. 25/9/19. Lost again. I need to talk to someone But I don’t know what to say I don’t know what I’m feeling Or why I feel this way I feel so lost and empty Sat here with my pen, alone But I can’t talk to anyone Not online, by pen... Continue Reading →

24/9/19

Dear Diary. I think I've finally found the right time to take my medication! Yay! Contrary to all the advice I was given about them causing insomnia if taken later in the day, I'm taking them right before bed and I'm sleeping kinda OK; for me. Just goes to show that the recommendations aren't always... Continue Reading →

Loneliness.

Being alone is awful. Nothing to stimulate the senses, no-one to break the endless silences. Nothing to do but ponder co-operation with anyone and nothing to enrich your days but radio, TV or books; no cohabiting companions to change the pace a little. Loneliness isn't just the plight of the elderly; it isn't something that... Continue Reading →

13/8/19.

Dear diary. I need to snap out of this funk I'm in, it's no good! I'm sick of feeling shitty about myself and everything about me and I'm sick of not being able to put my mind to anything. I just want to get on with stuff but I seem mired in thought and completely... Continue Reading →

12/8/19.

Dear diary. I dont know what's wrong with me today? I felt the fog descend at about lunchtime and I havnt been able to shake off the feelings of emptiness and doubt since. I dont even know what's wrong to have set this off, I just seem to have fallen off the edge of somewhere... Continue Reading →

11/8/19.

Dear diary. Another long and fruitful day... The garden is almost complete and after three years it's about time too. We are finally able to walk from one end to the other without getting attacked by weeds and overgrown grass or falling over some random rubbish from the ex husbands hobbies. All the scrap metal... Continue Reading →

10/8/19

Dear diary. What a day? I'm exhausted! My butt hasn't hit the ground all day and I've had no time to write at all. BB1 and MB1 have only just gone home but we have done loads today with BB1s help. She watched her brother and sister whilst Bear and I completely gutted the garden.... Continue Reading →

9/9/19

Dear diary. The weather has been much like my mood all day! English Summertime! BB1 let me have MB1 for the day whilst she was out at appointments and so I've been on Gamma/Momma Bear duties all day long; and my house certainly reflects this! I have the pair of them overnight and tomorrow too... Continue Reading →

8/8/19

Dear diary. Today she came over for the day and we had a go with the tattoo kit. Not a bad attempt considering I'm not a professional by any stretch of the imagination and it still needs completing tomorrow evening around the eyes. It's been a long but enjoyable day and I'm glad I have... Continue Reading →

7/8/19.

Dear diary... Well today was a wash out in more ways than one. The weather has been aweful today and the Bears take this as an oportunity to wreck the house. Being stuck indoors with two high octane children is the worst to say the least. My pain levels are high today, as a result... Continue Reading →

Dear Diary.

I originally started blogging as a way to vent some of the stresses my head created throughout my daily life; a digital extension of my own personal diary. This never really happened and I have gravitated more towards the daily challenge posts and the occasional rant. This is something I intend to rectify from today... Continue Reading →

Ellie the Elephant.

Over on #WOTD & #YDWP the challenge is to come up with something to fit the words you are given. I love to combine these challenges and see how many I can fit into one piece. ( I think I've managed three, max so far!) Today's words are Enigmatic and Elephant. The poem wrote itself!... Continue Reading →

The back of things.

Good morning everyone, over on Cee's B&W Photo today, the challenge is 'The Back of Things!' Enjoy. I hope you have all slept a little better than I have. The weather here is damp and hot at the moment and not making for a comfortable nights sleep. I for one will be glad to see... Continue Reading →

An ode to Bear.

Fandango's One Word Challenge. 6/8/19. Today over on This that and the Other, Fandangos one word challenge word of the day is Bewitched. The challenge is to come up with something related around that word. Today Im a poet and so follows the theme of my other posts. Bewitched. When you look at me Your... Continue Reading →

That Chip.

Word of the Day Challenge. 6/8/19. Hope you enjoy the poem folks. Dont forget to head over to the challenge page and check out the other entries. Happy reading. xx That Chip. There’s a chip upon your shoulder, The likes none have ever seen. There’s a chip upon your shoulder, And it’s making you quite... Continue Reading →

Sepia sky.

Weekly Prompts, Photo Challenge Sepia. Todays challenge over on Weekly prompts is Sepia. I knew instantly which image I wanted to use; how could anyone forget this sunset. Taken from my favorite spot. Don't forget to check out others entries over on the challenge page, follow the links. Happy snapping. xx

An Open Letter.

I lost a huge piece of my heart when you went away,, as I expect you did too but what must be must be in order for us all to grow. You've talked about losing toxic people from your life, as have I and this is exactly what has happened and what has had to... Continue Reading →

The world I live in.

Fandango’s Provocative Question #34. 5/8/19. Good morning everyone and welcome to another monday with me. Today's first post is in response to Fandangos Provocative question. Hope you enjoy reading and don't forget to follow the links and check out everyone elses entries too. What are the three biggest challenges your country (or, if you prefer, the... Continue Reading →

The Forest pt VI

The fireball could be seen for miles around, the local villages knowing instantly that the dragon was back; causing fear and panic across the land. All knew of the dangers the dragon held and tonight of all nights, on the eve of the king’s ascension, this omen could only bare ill will. Each village evacuated... Continue Reading →

My Shadow.

Sunday Photo Fiction. 4/8/19. Today's challenge over on Sunday Photo Fiction is to create a short story in 200 words, using the image provided. I have to admit, I have struggled no end with this this morning and cant come up with anything except a poem. Not strictly allowed but I hope I can write... Continue Reading →

Cricket.

Mindlovemisery's Menagerie, Saturday Mix – Sound Bite. 3/8/19. Todays challenge is to create a poem of prose using onomatopoeic rhyme. The challenge words are WHACK, YELP & SPLISH. Whack went the bat, a perfect six. Yelp went the dog as he gets hit. Whoosh went the ball as it tore by. Splish went the milk.... Continue Reading →

Astronomical Ending.

#SoCS  & Word of the Day Challenge. 3/8/19. Image provided by SpaceRef.com How many of you have thought about the end? How many of you have any ideas at all about how you want your family to deal with your remains once your gone. I do; and my brood are non too happy about it,... Continue Reading →

Oh to be a pussy cat!

TRAVEL WITH INTENT 6ws challenge. 3/8/19. My baby, Sirius Black. He still sleeps like this now that hes a full grown Tom. He has to hold on so you cant go anywhere. Pets are amazing and such a comfort when my mental health is not so good, I don't know what I would do without... Continue Reading →

Rant!

I've not been so good lately. The new anti-depressants make me exhausted by tea time and I'm falling asleep by eight; I don't even remember going to bed, I'm that tired. I literally feel like half my life has been taken from me because my evenings are being stolen by sleep. Bear works and doesn't... Continue Reading →

I Love You

Written in response to Putting My Feet in the Dirt August challenges, Your Daily Word Prompt & Word of the day Challenge. 2/8/19. A snippet of your time please, A tiny piece to call my own, A moment of your affection, Because I am all alone. A small amount of kindness, A thimbleful of your attention,... Continue Reading →

Start a Blog at WordPress.com.

Up ↑