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Dear diary Today feels like groundhog day... Yesterday I got all the way to uni, only to discover that I was a day early for my exam!! Better than being a day late but my god I'm an idiot! So... in 6 hours time I'll be sitting an exam, its definitely today this time! I'm... Continue Reading →


Dear diary Bears was in a foul mood this morning and I have no idea why. I got the impression I have done something wrong but I have no idea what and he wasnt in the mood to talk about it before he stomped off to work! I barely even got a goodbye. Today is... Continue Reading →


Dear diary. I've been so down lately what with one thing or another. I've been ill for weeks and the bears haven't been well either and combined with studying and classes to attend to I feel completely lost in it all. Lost and alone. I dont make friends easily, generally speaking people tend to stay... Continue Reading →


Dear diary Fell asleep at half 7 last night again because I'm exhausted from trying to manage the three lives I lead. I'm juggling motherhood and a full time degree as well as being part time sounding board for everyone elses frustration and a full time housewife to boot. I cant cope. Especially when I'm... Continue Reading →

In the twilight hours.

Written in response to #WOTD, 6/12/19 In the twilight hours I wake from fitful sleepto an emptiness that never leaves me. It pervades my waking hours and saps my strength from melike candy from a little childleaving me bereftwantinghoping for something more than this So I prey and I hopefor anythingsomethingbut all I ever find... Continue Reading →


Dear diary Its amazing how much damage you can do to yourself from a simple sneeze but here I am, stuck with a slipped disc and barely able to move! But her ho, it's not gunna stop me getting this assignment done and in on time, only a few more days to go and I... Continue Reading →


Dear diary I've pulled my back by sneezing! Of all the things to do to injure myself, sneezing is the daftest!! I can barely move now as the whole things tightened up in spasm so I'm gunna crack out the hot water bottle and see if that helps. Today I must finalise my last piece... Continue Reading →


Dear diary The exam went brilliantly yesterday, I couldnt have asked for a better results from my team really. I am so very happy that we got through it, and got such high praise from the assessors too; one of the best they had seen, apparently! Makes it all the sadder that next week will... Continue Reading →


Dear diary Today my assessment period at uni begins and I have my first test! I'm bricking it! I've never performed well at tests, too much pressure at the time that blocks my memory so I cant recall anything I need to and i panic! I wish I could, just for a change, be able... Continue Reading →


Dear diary Bear didn't get ill! Just the one throwing up session and hes right as rain again, which is a good thing seeing as he normally gets wiped out for days with any bug. I'm almost fine. Not quite feeling myself again yet and still feel nauseous but I'm back on my feet and... Continue Reading →


Dear diary. It's been a really long week battling this virus. I'm glad to say that the kids have fully recovered from it and I'm almost there but it looks like bear has it now as he threw his tea back last night. I've barely slept again and little miss is already up and about... Continue Reading →


Dear diary I feel awful today. Didn't sleep well last night and have already thrown my guts up this morning. Bears decided to do overtime again and so I'm stuck home with the kids, only this time I could really do with him here as I really dont feel well at all. Its gunna be... Continue Reading →


Dear diary I think I've caught the kids bug now, just spent the last 10 mins throwing my guts up and I feel ropey to say the least. I Love my baby bears very much but I do wish that they wouldn't share everything with me, iv far too much to do to be ill... Continue Reading →

Its Christmas Time!

Its Christmas time, no mistletoe nor winethe radios playing Christmas rhymewe've gas for the fire, but we have no treeit is one or the other, on benefits, you see! Its Christmas time and I shouldn't whineIm sat here playing Christmas rhymeswe'll have cash for food but we'll have no treesome things don't matter, when your... Continue Reading →


Dear diary Norovirus has hit the house again, second time in a week. This time its bb3 who's poorly. Poor mite looks like hell but at least I know it only lasts 24 hours and he will be fine again really soon. Today is going to be really interesting tho as I'm chairing a meeting... Continue Reading →


Dear diary. Didn't sleep very well again last night and I dont think bear did either. I think I've tried it down to the fact that I need a new matress. Mine is all springs and worn away and definitely time to replace but I cant afford a new one right now. Maybe Santa will... Continue Reading →


Dear diary. Another terrible nights sleep had by us all here in the bear cave. Bear was up a few times and so was I but the shocker is both the cubs are up and at it already too. So much for my quiet mornings contemplation eh! It's getting to the point now where bedtime... Continue Reading →


Dear diary Sorry for not writing yesterday. I didn't get up until 8am and so didn't have any time to myself to write. It's been a fairly uneventful weekend, nothing much has happened tbh except the kids and I watched the greatest showman and thoroughly enjoyed it. It's a really good film and one I... Continue Reading →


Dear diary. It's silly o'clock on a Saturday morning and I'm up already doing coursework! Anyone would think I'm enjoying this degree but that couldnt be further from the truth right now. I'm absolutely hating it but I'm determined not to give up. Today's nightmare involves putting a team presentation together that I'm the only... Continue Reading →


Written in response to #YDWP, #WOTD, #Daily Addictions & #MLMM. I cup my hands and pray for better days and better ways, for a fixed heart and a mended head that is better able to incorporate all life throws my way, and not have a complete meltdown. I pray all the time, even though I... Continue Reading →


Dear diary. Today I have to put my team leaders hat on and crack the whip at uni. Something I'm not looking forward to at all. Normally I remove myself from group situations but this time round I convinced myself to take part, thinking I'd have a background role in this group project but No!... Continue Reading →


Dear diary. Only I can wake up hung over after one drink!! I wouldnt mind but it's not like I even had a proper drink either, all I had was an Irish coffee after my meal but wow, am I suffering this morning. I should know better than to drink on a school night but... Continue Reading →


Dear diary I cant believe I actually managed it, but I did! I actually made it through the assignment yesterday and managed to write over 2600 words in total. Today's mission is to make some amendments and get the word count down to its correct amount. As well as clean the house and go to... Continue Reading →


Dear diary Today's mission is... write a two thousand word essay, comparing and contrasting two telecommunications companies from different market structures. I dont even know where to start. God help me please! I wish for just one day that I could have someone cleverers brains, just till I get this essay done. Why did I... Continue Reading →


Dear diary My dreams are all themed the same way lately. I'm running away from everything and getting lost as I do. I dont know how to interpret them and it scares me. I was awake 4 times last night and each time I went back to the same theme, the same nightmare of running... Continue Reading →

Predictions would be nice!

Written in response to #WOTD, #YDWP, #FOWC & #Daily Addictions I feel like I'm sat in the lobby of my life, just waiting for my bags to be brought down; but they never come. I feel like I'm surfing on the roughest seas, constantly paddling to try and stay afloat and not drown under the... Continue Reading →


Dear diary The new sofa and armchair looks grand in my living room. I'm very pleased with my purchase. Goes to show that you dont need to buy brand new, off the showroom floor. Thrift shop purchases can be just as good as brand new and it only cost me £39 to boot! I'm a... Continue Reading →


Dear diary. I've just woke up and its 8am! I never sleep till this late and its thrown me out a little. I'm so used to being up by 5am, I feel like I've lost the plot this morning and I don't know what to do first. Im three hours in arrears with everything this... Continue Reading →

I used to be…

Written in response to #WOTD & #YDWP I used to be quite loquacious when I were younger, a little too verbose some may have said but I always had something to say on any given subject. Nowadays I struggle to string two words together most days and my mind has a blankness only the heavily... Continue Reading →


Dear diary Nightmares again. I'm dreaming about exams again and failing. Why the same thing over and over? I get it already ffs. I know things are coming to an end at uni, I can feel it. I'm slipping further and further behind with it all and theres nothing I can do about it other... Continue Reading →

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