28/12/19

Dear diary

I wish I could sleep!

I’m so sick of being up at 5am its untrue. I just wish, for once, that I could manage to roll over, give 2 fingers to the world and drift back off to a peaceful sleep. Just once!

But it never happens, my body knows I take my meds at 6am and wont let me sleep beyond that point and it sucks. I’m 38 and a slave to my medication and conditions.

I shouldn’t moan, I know there are many people worse off than me, in far more pain than me, that get on without whinging about it all. I wish I knew how they did it, day in, day out and manage to keep their spirits up. I’d love to be able to replicate that.

Xxxx