“What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger!”
Its a strange old adage and one that makes no sense to me at all.
An occurrence doesn’t make you stronger just because you have lived through it. I don’t feel any stronger for having lived through the things I have, if anything, I feel progressively weakened by it all.
I suppose its all down to mental attitude and convincing yourself that the fact you survived makes you stronger, but I don’t feel any stronger at all. I feel ashamed, scared, lost, angry, many many things, but strong is definitely not one of them.
How do you go about changing a whole persona to fit a more positive version of yourself? I wish there was a magic potion to make me more optimistic, because I hate the person I am. I loathe the pathetic, pessimistic, depressed and down, sad old lady I have become!