Fervent. Daily word prompt 20/5/19
Having or displaying a passionate intensity
“a fervent supporter of the cause”
Once upon a time I fought for what I thought was right. First on the lines of a march or protest, always ready to stand for the rights of the ‘little man.’ I was never afraid to pick a side, never afraid to be proven wrong or have my errors pointed out. I would stand, with conviction; steadfastly, fervently.
What has changed?
Why do I shy away and hide from the things I would have once marched headlong into?
Why am I now so afraid all the time?
I miss the side of myself that held the fervent nature I once had. I long for the days when my carefree attitude and self confidence shone through most of the time and I could fight for what I believed in. I long to be able to argue my corner without dissolving into a gibbering mess or withdrawing so far into myself I can no longer climb out.
I miss fervent.
I miss Me.